I saw this poem on someone else's website, hope ya don't mind sharing it.
MY MOM IS A SURVIVOR
My Mom is a survivor, or so I've heard it said
but I can hear her crying at night,
when all others are in bed.
I watch her lay awake at night
and go to hold her hand,
she doesn't know I'm with her
to help her understand.
But like the sands on the beach
that never wash away.....,
I watch over my surviving Mom
who thinks of me each day.
She wears a smile of disguise
but through Heaven's door
I see tears flowing from her eyes.
My Mom tries to cope with death;
to keep my memory alive,
It is her way to survive.
As I watch over my surviving Mom
through Heaven's open door,
I try to tell her the angels
protect me forever more!
I know that doesn't help her
or ease the burden she bears,
so if you get a chance, go visit her,
show her that you care.
For no matter what she says,
no matter what she feels,
my Mom has a broken heart
that time won't ever heal...........
Hey Justin...just wanted to tell you that I have some friends that are with you now....Butler, Kim, Little Butler and Emily Smith. They were taken from this earth two days ago. If you get a chance give them a big hug from me and tell them I miss and love them. I am sure you and Butler will have alot in common...fishing, hunting, etc. Little Butler will not be far behind either..he loves to hunt and fish. With a big heart like yours I know you will show them the love we all send. Speaking of fishing...I actually caught two pretty good ones this past weekend. A bream and a catfish. I am getting ready for a fourth of July gathering at my house and am actually getting fireworks together...that is my favorite part of the holiday. It brings so many memories of you. I will have a really special one this year just for you so be watching for it...you will know its for you when you see it. I love you and miss you even more.
Always and forever,
Jen
Just been thlnking of some of the things we use to do,memories are good and i am glad i have them but it is good that parents do not know how the memories is going to hurt if they lose a child. I sure do hope that you knew how much you ment to me and how much I loved you.Hope you can forgive me for the things that I did and did not do.
Love Always
DAD
A Poem written for you!!!
“Missing You”
As I sit and watch the water flow...
I wonder why you had to go?
My cork is floating...have not had a bite!
I have been fishing all day and into the night.
As darkness surrounds me; the frogs begin to sing.
A tear rolls from my eye, as your memory their songs bring.
Remembering your smile, and the love shown in your eyes...
I gaze at the stars, how beautiful against the night skies!
I find the brightest star and wish with all my heart....
I want to feel your spirit always...NEVER to part!
As I finish my wish, I look back at the lake.
I feel your presence....there is no mistake!
My wish carried by angel wings, soared up to Heavens gate...
I just caught a fish....you have them taking my bait!
As I feel the wind, the rain, and the sun in the sky;
I know its you telling me, “Please, do not cry!”
“I am with you always even though you cannot see,”
“A raindrop on your cheek, a soft wind in your hair...Its me telling you I will always be there!”
I find comfort in these precious gifts given by you!
As I head inside, the sky is turning bright blue.
My fishing is done for today and the reality sets in...
Tomorrow will not come soon enough for “OUR” special time again!
Justin, I love you and miss you endlessly!
With love,
Jennifer
Well, another day has come to an end and I am sitting here thinking of you as usual. The thoughts of you are abundant and never ending. I think about our younger days...alot! For some weird reason those memories are the ones that stick out for me. No matter what the memories, I cherish each one of them. To sit here and say that time will heal all wounds is crazy...atleast for me! The "wound" of missing you in my life will never cease. My heart tells me one thing while my head tells me another. Mixed emotions are constant! I tell myself constantly that you are in a much better place but dang it...I want you here! My heart aches for your Mama, Daddy and Kayla. I cannot even begin to fathom their feelings of loss! It just seems that everything I do reminds me of a memory of you...I am so grateful for that! I NEVER want your memory to cease...you are alive and strong in my mind, heart and soul! I have spent alot of time with your Mama lately and enjoyed her so very much! I just cannot wait for your Daddy to come home so we can spend time with him as well. You know I have always been extremely close to your parents...kinda like a second set of parents to me! Kayla has never felt like a sister to me but more like my own child...you definately were the like the little brother I begged for! Words escape me when I try to tell you just how much you mean to me. Words left unsaid on earth haunt me at times but I know you are aware of my love for you! That is the one thing that I do KNOW! Thru your passing I have tried to be more vocal with my feelings towards others....to let them know exactly what they mean to me. I don't ever want any regrets with anyone especially loved ones. Justin, I respect you in so many ways....your kindness, love, friendship but most importantly your courage to be the person you were....not to mold into someone else just because others thought you should. You held firm to your independence and it showed just what a special person you were! As each day passes, I strive to be more like you in that aspect! To be the person God made you, all the while showing the big heart and love you had towards others...I miss you Justin! My heart aches for you....but thru your memory I live on. Thank you for allowing me to see that to be true to others means being true to yourself!!
Love always,
Jen
